Sometimes I feel really strong. I feel like I can go through life and take whatever it throws at me. And sometimes, I feel like just sleeping. I'm at the "I just want to sleep" stage right now.
I guess this post will just be about what I'm tired of right now.
I'm tired of seeing idiot people hurting each other.
I'm tired of seeing the world go to pieces because people think of only themselves.
I'm tired of feeling like I'm not enough. To anyone.
I'm tired of fighting my attractions in a world where love is celebrated/mentioned in almost every form, whether it's in books, music, tv, etc.
I'm tired of liking someone and them not liking me back.
I'm just tired.
I know this post was rather depressing, and it probably sounds like I'm complaining (which I am), but... I'm just tired.
I can't help but feel just a little resentful towards the prospect of either being alone and in my church or being with someone and being out of my church. Why can't I have both?? I love my church. But I'd be lying if I said that I was strong with this.
I'm tired.
Kelsey
